4:55 a.m. - August 29, 2003
Tonight I am off to see SJ's band play. It is gonna be a good night, I just know it. We have been talking a bit and he seems great. I need a relaxing night out. He called last night at clost to 11:30 but I was out like a light. No one is going with me. D is in Denver and comes back today. She said if she wasnt to tired she might. I wont hold my breath. And Sassy is helpin her friend move. So I am off ALONE...may go to Habana for one before I head down there. Or not.
Funny how things work. I am seeing Scuba tomorrow night. I hadn't heard from him in a month-ish. I knew he was busy but out of the BLUE he calls. I guess his birthday is here and he wants to do a "birthday party". He wanted to do it tonight but I cant. And no matter how he tried to work it I just am NOT gonna. Tomorrow...period. Thats it. I already had plans tonight and if SJ wasnt going to Hawaii then it might be a bit different. I dont drop plans like that. So anyway...tomorrow night ROUND TWO. Pray for me I am gonna need it. I got him a kick ass b-day present ...he is gonna flip out...little FREAK.
Sunday will best best taken as a down day in bed...I say that...After hangin out with Scuba I doubt it. Ill come home and be all wound up. I told Stretch I miht come over. I hafta fix those fucking brakes on my car before I flip out. Different brake pads DEFINATELY. Monday I think I am gonna take them off and see what the fuckin deal is. Squealing Bastards.
I didnt hear from Pop Tart all night. THATS new. So I guess I was right about the no call stand off. I was just to tired of the whole thing to call. And I KNOW he would keep beating a dead horse til it was pulp. ANd frankly I am OVER it. I got a couple of hang up calls myself last night. I told Cyclops if I was a real glutton for punishment I would call him and accuse him of calling and hanging up on me. Naw I am a grown up. I had taken my ad off yahoo to see if he noticed. I wasnt online enuf yesterday to make a difference but I can tell you this...UNTIL I find the guy I wanna be with forever the ad stays. And I am not taking it off just cuz he says to. His is still up...Where am I? "DO AS I SAY, NOT AS I DO" World? I dont THINK so. Well I am sorry I keep ranting about him I just still dont get it..maybe I am not supposed to.
I am gonna go shower and get the hell outta here. Ill write when I get home. Thank the gods that inventory is done (I think). I have had about all of that I can take. Unorganized fucks.