8:24 p.m. - August 28, 2003
What else has been happening? Well lets start with Pop Tart. And Prolly end there too. I dont know what has happened to him. Maye he got some bad peyote. Maybe aliens abducted him, probed his anus and dropped him off in a state of disorentation. Fuck I am beginning to think there might be an underlying mental state of dementia. Regardless I think there should be a show like that "When good pets go bad" aimed at people. He has looped out on me and I dont know what to do. For an entire week it has been a text message WAR. Kinda like "who gets the last word". I have told him and told him I didnt call and hang up on him. I have told him and told him I havent done anything. Yet he has told me to fuck off, go to hell, called me a liar, told me to take my ad off Yahoo or something like that. His rage went from none to full throttle. It made no sense. It was psycho babble. I tried talking thru text. What I have come to? He is on a stand off wih me now to see who breaks and calls first. He kept telling me that if I really liked him I woulda called by now. DUDE YOU SCREAMED MY HEAD OFF FOR CALLING YOU...AND IT WASNT A PLEASANT SCREAM FEST. I tried telling him I was gun shy about calling him but sheesh...okay this is wearing me out. I havent called cuz everytime I do I get voice mail and if I leave a message he says I call to much...lesser of two evils? No Thanks...I pick...dont call.
I have given this a little thought today and I think I am gonna give him space for a while...ALOT of it. When he comes back to reality and realizes I am not the enemy and I never did anythingn wrong..AND the only thing I am guilty of is being nice to him maybe he will call. Or not. We will see. I can tell you this..I may not be available if he waits a long time. And if Im not...cest la vie....You know the most tragic thing about all this is that he is the first guy in forever I didnt twitch with. THATS something to think about...maybe I should trust the twitch..No I will...I think it was right on...something else happened to him. There is an incredible guy in there...SOMEWHERE