2:43 p.m. - December 21, 2006
DEAR CALIFORNIA
DEAR CALIFORNIA~
IT SEEMS LIKE THERE ARE DAYS THAT ARE HARDER THAN OTHERS BEING AWAY FROM YOU. AS I SIT HERE THINKING ABOUT WHAT GREAT THINGS THE FUTURE HERE IN OKLAHOMA HAS FOR ME, I CANT HELP BUT GET TEARY EYED THINKING OF THE FABULOUS FIVE YEARS WE SPENT TOGETHER. I KNOW WE HAD OUR UPS AND DOWNS, BAD DAYS AND GOOD DAYS, BUT ALL IN ALL BEING WITH YOU WAS PROBABLY ONE OF THE BEST TIMES OF MY LIFE. I HAVE LEARNED THAT YOU CAN NEVER GO BACK AND I PRIDE MYSELF ON NOT BACKSLIDING, BUT I HAVE TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. FOR SOME REASON I MISS YOU MORE TODAY THAN USUAL. I DONT KNOW WHY I GET THIS WAY SOMETIMES. I HAVE TRIED DILIGENTLY TO LET YOU GO BUT FOR SOME REASON YOU LINGER IN MY HEART AND SOUL. BECAUSE OF YOU I MET SOME OF THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. EVEN THOUGH WE ARENT TOGETHER ANYMORE YOU CAN NOT TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME. QUEENIE, KAT, JESS, JILLY, SAMMY, RICKY, TONY, COBBLER, DENISE, CHRISTINE, SUZI, RUSS, TOPHER, TRACY, LUCKY, JEFF, RAINE, BULLET, TATER TOT, MARK, ROMAN, DANNY, KEVIN, BOBBY, TORY, STEVE, TAIME, STEPH, JEN, AND ROB. THE PLACES WE USED TO GO LIKE HABANA, BEACHBALL, BLACKIES, DEL TACO, RAINBOW, STANDARD, LIQUID LOUNGE, HAUS OF PIZZA, NEW PANDA, BAJA FRESH, SOUTH COAST PLAZA, SPECTRUM, COOKS CORNER, VENICE, NEWPORT, BALBOA, RODEO, MELROSE, SUNSET, SPAGOS, VIPER, WHISKEY, ELECTRIC CHAIR, THE ASYLUM, THE COACHHOUSE, CLUB VODKA, MISS KITTYS, PALADINOS, AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST THE GOAT HILL ARE ALL MEMORIES I WILL NEVER LET GO.
THIS IS NOT A LETTER TO TELL YOU THAT I WANT YOU BACK COMPLETELY. BUT I NEED TO HAVE YOU BACK IN SOME SMALL WAY TO KEEP ME GROUNDED AND REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO BE IN A DIFFERENT POSITION THAN I AM NOW. TO HELP KEEP ME HUMBLE AND THANKFUL FOR THE THINGS I AM FORTUNATE ENOUGH TO HAVE NOW. I AM GOING TO COME BACK AND SEE YOU IN A FEW MONTHS AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT THIS WILL NOT BE THE LAST TIME I WILL BE COMING HOME TO YOU. BUT THIS IS AN IMPORTANT TRIP FOR ME. WHILE I AM THERE I WANT TO EMBRACE YOU AND REMEMBER WHAT WE WERE LIKE TWO YEARS AGO.
SO PLEASE LET ALL MY FRIENDS AND HAUNTS KNOW I AM COMING BACK. I AM BRINGING WITH ME A NEW SET OF EYES BUT THE SAME HEART I HAD FOR YOU BEFORE. HOLD OUT YOUR HAND AND WELCOME ME AND LETS GO HAVE SOME FUN FOR OLD TIMES SAKE.
I MISS YOU AND I WILL SEE YOU SOON....
ALWAYS, V
