8:25 a.m. - April 26, 2006
The State Of The Union
OKAY THIS BLOG IS A LONG TIME COMING. I AM GOING TO SPEAK MY MIND ON SOME ISSUES THAT ARE AT THE FOREFRONT OF MY ATTENTION. HOWEVER I NEED TO ADD THIS DISCLAIMER....
******THIS BLOG IS NOT ABOUT ANY ONE PERSON OR INFLUENCED BY ONE PERSONS ACTIONS....THIS IS A BLOG ABOUT CHAOS AS IT EXISTS IN MY WORLD, THINGS I NOTICE THAT I FEEL NEED TO BE ADDRESSED******
PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ADD YOUR TWO CENTS...AND IF YOU ARENT A RAVING LOONY ILL APPROVE YOUR COMMENTS
HERE ARE THE TOP 10 TOPICS I NEED TO ADDRESS AND I HOPE I DONT VEER OFF COURSE TOO MUCH. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER THAT THESE OPINIONS ARE MINE. YOU MAY AGREE OR NOT...I DONT REALLY CARE.
1. "CORE FRIENDS" - THESE ARE THE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE THAT ARE THERE FOR YOU REGARDLESS OF ANYTHING. YOU MAY NOT SEE THEM EVERY DAY, YOU MAY NOT TALK TO THEM EVERY DAY. BUT YOU KNOW THAT THEY ARE A PHONE CALL AWAY. THESE ARE THE PEOPLE THAT YOU CAN RELY ON WITHOUT EXCEPTION. THEY MAKE FUN OF YOU TO YOUR FACE, CRY WITH YOU WHEN YOU NEED IT AND YOU CAN COMMUNICATE WITH ONE WORD AND KNOW WHAT THE OTHER PERSON MEANS.
CORE FRIENDS DONT GET THEIR FEELINGS HURT IF YOU DO THINGS WITH OTHER PEOPLE. THEY UNDERSTAND THAT A HEALTHY FRIENDSHIP ISNT BASED ON BEING TOGETHER 24 HOURS AND UNDERSTANS THAT YOU HAVE OTHER PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE BESIDES THEM. THIS DOESNT BOTHER THEM. THEY SAY "HAVE FUN!" OR " I BET THAT WAS A BLAST" INSTEAD OF SAYING "WHY DIDNT YOU INVITE ME?".
CORE FRIENDS DONT HAVE TO BE ON YOUR TOP 8 OR HAVE YOU LEAVE COMMENTS FOR THEM EVERY DAY TO KNOW YOU ARE THEIR FRIEND. THEY DONT TAKE MYSPACE AND MAKE IT REAL LIFE. THEY ARENT OFFENDED OR UPSET BY COMMENTS YOU LEAVE FOR OTHERS OR ARE LEFT FOR YOU BY OTHERS
CORE FRIENDS SPEAK THEIR MIND TO YOU EVEN IF IT HURTS AND FORGIVE YOU WHEN YOU DO IT TO THEM. THEY KNOW YOU ONLY SAY THINGS TO THEM BECAUSE YOU CARE AND ARE CONCERNED. THEY ARE NOT TRYING TO CONTROL YOUR LIFE...BUT MORE TRYING TO CONTRIBUTE TO IT BY HELPING. THEY WOULD NEVER HURT YOU INTENTIONALLY. EVER.
CORE FRIENDS DO NOT EVEN LOOK AT A MAN YOU ARE INTERESTED IN LIKE THEY WANT TO HOOK UP WITH THEM. THEY WOULD NEVER CONSIDER THAT. AND EVEN IF THEY THINK THE GUY ISNT THE BEST FOR YOU, THEY LISTEN AND SUPPORT YOU GOOD OR BAD.
UNCONDITIONAL....THATS HOW I DEFINE CORE FRIENDS
2. "PORCH NIGHT" - I HAVE GOTTEN A LITTLE FLACK LATELY ABOUT PORCH NIGHT AND I NEED TO SAY A FEW THINGS.I MOVED INTO THE PASEO AND RIGHT BEHIND CHRISTIE AND LORA. WE ARE IN SUCH CLOSE PROXIMITY TO EACH OTHER IT IS IMPOSSIBLE NOT TO SEE EACH OTHER. THE WEATHER IS GETTING NICER AND I LIKE TO BE OUTSIDE WHILE I CAN BEFORE IT GETS TOO HOT. I HAVE A KICK ASS PORCH AND I LIKE BEING OUT THERE CHILLING.
BEING THAT LORA AND CHRISTIE ARE SO CLOSE WE CAN SEE EACH OTHER. SOMETIMES AFTER DROOLER GOES TO BED LORA WILL SIT OUTSIDE AND CHRISTIE WILL GO OVER TO HER PLACE OR VICE VERSA. IM NOT ALWAYS THERE OR EVEN CALLED. SOMETIMES I CHILL WITH LORA, NO CHRISTIE AND SOMETIMES ME AND CHRISTIE DO THINGS.
SARA IS ALWAYS AT CHRISTIES OR MY HOUSE AND THUS THE SAME AS ABOVE. WE DRINK WINE, TALK AND GO INSIDE AFTER A GLASS OR TWO.
WE DO NOT PLAN THIS
IT JUST HAPPENS.
IT SEEMS THERE HAVE BEEN A FEW PEOPLE SAY..."WELL NEXT TIME YOU GUYS HANG OUT CALL ME" OR "I WANT TO COME OVER AND HAVE A PORCH NIGHT".
HERE IS THE DEALIO...WE ARE NOT GOING TO CALL YOU. ITS NOT BECAUSE WE DONT LIKE YOU. ITS NOT BECAUSE WE ARE BEING SNEAKY. IT IS BECAUSE IT IS USUALLY AROUND 9PM, AND IT IS MAYBE AN HOUR AND IT JUST HAPPENS. I CAN BE ON THE FLAMETHROWER AND RIDE BY AND LORA SAYS...HEY....AT THIS POINT I AM NOT GOING TO SAY "LETS CALL X,Y,Z AND HAVE A PARTY."
PORCH NIGHTS ARE A 33RD ST/34TH ST NEIGHBOR THING. THEY ARE NOT..I REPEAT NOT A PLANNED EVENT. IF YOU WANT TO BE INCLUDED ON PORCH NIGHTS .. BUY A HOUSE ON OUR STREETS AND GO CRAZY WATCHING OUT THE WINDOW TO SEE WHATS GOING ON. IF YOU CANT AFFORD TO BUY A HOUSE THEN DRIVE AROUND THE BLOCK ALL NIGHT STALKING US BECAUSE YOU CANT TAKE NOT BEING INCLUDED IN AN UNPLANNED, UNSOLICITED LOW KEY CHAT.
3. "GOING OUT" - DONT CALL ME WANTING TO KNOW IF I AM GOING OUT TO BAKERS. IM NOT FOR A WHILE. I BOUGHT A HOUSE AND IT IS ALOT MORE FUN FOR ME TO HANG OUT THERE. I CAN POSSIBLY BE TALKED INTO DINNER AT NOVA OR MUASHIS OR OLIVE GARDEN...BUT NO CLUBBING...THE ONLY EXCEPTION TO THIS IS WHEN ELEPHANT BAR OPENS AS I NEED ME SOME ADAM.
4. "WHINERS" - I CANT TAKE WHINEY ASS PEOPLE ANYMORE. THOSE OF YOU OUT THERE THAT HAVE NOTHING BUT BITCHY MOANS AND WOE IS ME MENTALITY. HERE IS A NEWS FLASH...WE ALL HAVE ISSUES...IF I WANNA KNOW HOW MISERABLE YOU ARE I WILL ASK. WHEN I DO, FEEL FREE TO UNLOAD. BUT WHEN THE SUBJECT CHANGES...NO MO WHINE.
5. "ORDER OF IMPORTANCE" - THIS LIST HAS CHANGED QUITE A BIT FOR ME LATELY. GOING OUT AND BEING A PARTY ANIMAL HAS SLIPPED FROM THE TOP 5 TO THE VERY BOTTOM OF THE LIST. AGAIN I HAVE A NEW HOUSE I WANT TO TEND TO, I HAVE REPAIRS THAT NEED TO BE DONE ON THE Z, I WANNA DO MY FLOWERBEDS, AUSCHWITZ NEEDS TO BE CLEANED...HELL I CAN GO ON AND ON. I APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT EVERYONE THINKS I WHIP TOGETHER A GREAT PARTY, I DO, I KNOW I DO AND I THANK YOU FOR THAT. BUT I AM NOT PLANNING ANYMORE DRUNKEN ESCAPADES, WITH THE EXECPTION OF LORAS BDAY PARTY.
6. "SOLICITED OPINIONS VS NON-SOLICITED OPINIONS" - THERE IS TWO EDGES TO THIS SWORD. FIRST OF ALL LET ME SAY THAT I WILL GIVE YOU MY HONEST OPINION IF YOU ASK ME. AND SOMETIMES ILL GIVE IT IF YOU DONT. IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ITS COOL. JUST BLOW IT OFF. IF YOU ASK ME FOR MY OPINION AND I GIVE IT TO YOU AND YOU CHOOSE NOT TO LISTEN...PLEASE DO NOT COME BACK TO ME WITH THE SAME FUCKING ISSUE LATER. OTHER SIDE OF THE SWORD....YOU CAN GIVE ME YOUR OPINION ANYTIME YOU WANT...SAME RULES FROM ABOVE APPLY FOR YOURS TRULY.
7. "MEN"- I DONT REALLY KNOW WHERE THIS WILL GO SO I AM GONNA MAKE IT SHORT AND SWEET. I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT THIS RIGHT NOW REGARDING MEN IN MY WORLD. I DID BUT I CHANGED MY MIND.
8. "MONEY" - SHOPPING IS MY NEWEST OUTLET. I WANT TO GO EVERYDAY. I AM LOOKING FOR A NEW BIG YARD SET FOR THE BACK YARD. I ALSO WANT SOME NEW SKIRTS. IF YOU WANT TO GO FINE. BUT PLEASE DO NOT RAG ON ME ABOUT MY SPENDING. I EARN MY MONEY AND I WANT TO SPEND IT. I BLOW ALOT OF CASH. THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT OWE ME MONEY, SOME MORE THAN OTHERS. I GIVE MONEY FREELY ESPECIALLY TO PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT IF THEY NEED IT. I DONT EVER ASK FOR IT BACK. BUT IF I DO HELP YOU OUT...AND YOU FAIL TO EVEN ATTEMPT TO PAY ME BACK...CONSIDER MY ATM OUT OF SERVICE. THE CHANCES ARE THAT I WONT TAKE IT FROM YOU BECAUSE YOU OBVIOUSLY NEED IT WORSE THAN I DO, HOWEVER THERE ARE PEOPLE LIKE ERIC DEYO THAT ASKS FOR A LOAN, THEN DELETES HIS EMAIL ACCOUNT AND CHANGES HIS NUMBER SO HE DOESNT HAVE TO PAY ME BACK. DONT DO THAT TO ME. IT ISNT COOL AND YOU ARE CUTTING IN TO MY SHOPPING ADDICTION.
9. "ACHIEVING YOUR OWN IDENTITY" - I AM KICK ASS. I AM FUN, I HAVE A KICK ASS HOUSE, KICK ASS WEEN, A COUPLE OF KICK ASS CARS AND WIERD HAIR. IT HAS TAKEN ME MOVING ALL OVER THE US, SETTLING IN CALIFORNIA, BEING ON MY OWN, MOVING TO WHERE I DONT KNOW ANYONE AND STARTING OVER FROM SCRATCH, BEING BROKE AS FUCK, HAVING MORE MONEY THAN I KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH, JOB HOPPIN, HOUSE HUNTING, CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP, LAUGHING TIL IT HURTS, GOING OUT WITH A GROUP, GOING OUT ALONE, FALLING IN LOVE, BEING HEART BROKEN, SUPRISES AND DISAPPOINTMENTS, FAILING, SUCCEEDING AND FAILING AGAIN TO BECOME WHO I AM. IT HAS BEEN EXTREMELY DIFFICULT FOR ME. AND EVEN THOUGH I TEND TO MAKE IT LOOK EASY I AM A DUCK...CALM ON THE SURFAVE BUT PADDLING LIKE A MANIAC UNDERWATER. LIFE ISNT EASY FOR ME EITHER. I MAKE IS SEEM THAT WAY. BUT THROUGH ALL THE BULLSHIT I HAVE HAD TO ENDURE I HAVE BECOME WHO I AM. EACH AND EVERYONE ONE OF YOU THAT READ THIS NEED TO REALIZE THAT IT TAKES HARD ROADS AND TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS TO BUILD CHARACTER...AND THAT IS WHAT IS THE FOUNDATION OF YOUR OWN IDENTITY. IMITATION IS THE FINEST FORM OF FLATTERY. AND THATS COOL. BUT WHEN IT COMES TO IDENTITY I HAVE MINE...DONT BE ME...GET YOUR OWN.
10. "WHAT NOW?" - WELL THATS EASY...CARRY ON...BE HAPPY....LIVE FOR YOU. NO ONE WALKS IN YOUR SHOES BUT YOU. IF YOU CAN GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT WITH A CLEAR CONSCIOUS AND LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND LIKE WHO YOU SEE THEN THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS IN THE END RIGHT? A WISE PROFESSOR I HAD IN COLLEGE ONCE SAID TO ME "LIVE BY THIS QUOTE...'BE HERE NOW'". EVER SINCE THAT CLASS I HAVE KEPT THAT IN MY HEAD. I DONT WORRY ABOUT YESTERDAY OR TOMORROW BUT HOW THINGS ARE GOING RIGHT NOW. AND BE THE BEST PERSON I CAN BE RIGHT NOW.
OKAY NOW ALL THATS OFF MY CHEST....IM FLAT CHESTED....KIDDING...BUT SERIOUSLY...THANKS FOR ENDURING MY RANT...HOPE IT CLEARS A FEW THINGS UP AND ILL CATCH YOU GUYS SOON...
PEACE FUCKERS!
